Taking on this new venture has been harder than I expected. And I mean that honestly—no joke, I don’t have the slightest clue what I’m doing when it comes to building a website. At all.
I ask ChatGPT a million questions a day, and even then I still get frustrated trying to figure out something as simple as centering a photo on a page… or what the heck a 404 even is. These small things, the ones that seem so basic to everyone else, can completely derail me—especially when I already feel like I’m behind.
Little by little, though, I’ve been figuring it out. Slowly, I’ve been building confidence. I can successfully publish a post now. That doesn’t mean it’s perfect, and it definitely doesn’t mean I catch every flaw—but it is progress.
I still go back and reread what I’ve shared, wondering if I should have released things differently or in a certain order. My anxiety and obsessive thoughts are still here, still riding alongside me. They didn’t magically disappear just because I decided to start creating again.
But even so, I continue pushing forward.
Regardless of not fully knowing what I’m doing.
Regardless of the mistakes I’m making along the way.
Regardless of the doubt that keeps trying to slow me down.
Maybe this is what learning—and returning to creativity—actually looks like. Not confidence first, but the courage to keep going anyway.
And I’m not stopping.
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